Thursday, January 29, 2015

2:00am


Why am I
up at 2:00am

Pretending I'm perfectly
fine

Not daring to text you
but listening to music you like

Just the same. I mean,
it's not even my type

It just makes me feel like
you're here

I should be asleep but I'm 
wide awake; lights on 

I'm not tired, just exhausted 
from replaying memories of you

And smiling at all of the
weird things you used to say

Funny how
I can barely remember to breathe

But I can remember each tap 
of your agile musician's fingers

On the desk; tabletop; whatever 
surface was handy

And how all I wanted each time
was to reach for your hand with mine

But I didn't
and I won't...

'Cause I can't 
anymore. 


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